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“何以为人，不过欲望满身。”——佚名1你说，好喜欢这略带腥味的海风等候分解的情绪散落如滞留想象中的沙粒那是离出生地最近的海注定淹没我们的躯体和嘴唇一面是静止的，一望无际一面是躁动的，不安与狭窄是分置于两人内心各自不同的大海一张若无其事单纯自信的脸时而楚楚可怜强忍住哭泣时皱着鼻子忘了带防晒霜、白色帽子带花纹的泳衣、红色拖鞋“原来，我们与大海之间没有距离。”2“当然，如果你见过真正的海，你就变了。”午夜海水的黑极其陌生你义无反顾地扑向它也可能是它正向我们涌来黑沉沉的海面闪烁着微光未知的严寒或炙热，熄灭你来不及脱下衣裙却轻易放弃了世界躺在了潮汐的胸口去吧，去感受那无已消停内心的畏惧如同炸裂如同渴望你说自己就是无法突破的壁垒比如，无法接受和一个不爱的人上床翻滚着的海浪绵绵不绝扑腾着向我们奔来喜悦与痛苦若冷漠的长夜仅证明纯粹那头顶的星空呢，它隐瞒过多少黑洞吞噬一切物质的因果而你永远看不见它的旋转永远无法与之面对面这是多么可怕之处啊，好比漫长有太多我们不曾窥见的事物它们正在腐烂像失去的时间和睡过的人“而我们，或者仅仅只是样本？”此刻你在不远处呼吸此刻重生3清晨，你走出浴室，脸颊潮红买来的新鲜水果放置茶几聊起染发，渐变的金黄或绿色“只为改变未来的心情。”所谓明天，谁又能替你描述呢？夏日尚不足以盛大哪怕植物的绿已接近深沉大海加速了喘息太阳正在努力制造阴影瓜果发育饱满所谓南方，早已沦陷于近代史你站在了海的面前你说海的蓝色是敏感的正午，白色的海浪一阵阵袭来那种疼多像眼泪你说好爽啊那时，你正从巨大的盐水中浮出身体孩子们踩着细小的沙粒你说起那位遥远，从未谋面的网恋情人也想和他生下一堆小孩一辈子住在远离城市与大海的地方多少次，远处的海湾释放惊涛压迫强大无比的自制力覆盖宽阔的欲望，万物的欲瞬间，拉长所有事物的平衡你常常与我一起保持沉默似乎还有谁会替我们表达海风像在进行一次次手术更贴近浪的本质你将我引入深处却拒绝我伸出的双手“总算胜过了愉悦的折磨。”你说那晚在梦里见到了蛇出现在童年时老家的门口4那些打捞上岸的海鲜“它们很可怜，它们都是生命。”我们共同的海面没有一条路更无法打开一扇门“从第一次见面，我们便开始成为彼此的回忆了。”我们周围全是诱惑包括这海“世界，并非想象的那么干净。也不是每个人都能做到纯粹的自私。”是否无数鱼群正向我们奔来巨鲸是否如同我们难以安睡蜂拥而至满是钙化的白骨与贝壳惊奇于一次次错觉你大声笑了“这大海究竟是梦想还是恐惧的源头？”5携带的秘密消失于午后的航班成为多年后无数遍怀疑的真实我仍会想起那片沙滩胆怯身后无数消散的脚印我们都曾在彼此面前体无完肤把孤单葬身海的轻浮渐次清晰的却是老去的背影直至有天突然惊醒把一生经历赋予海水只有海容纳人间的浩瀚舔舐一切污浊破解压抑的障碍把所有的片段逐一释放是的，对于眼前的世界我们已无力索取更多2020.5.5-7 | “he yi wei ren ，bu guo yu wang man shen 。”——yi ming 1ni shui ，hao xi huan zhe lve dai xing wei de hai feng deng hou fen jie de qing xu san la ru zhi liu xiang xiang zhong de sha li na shi li chu sheng de zui jin de hai zhu ding yan mei wo men de qu ti he zui chun yi mian shi jing zhi de ，yi wang mo ji yi mian shi zao dong de ，bu an yu xia zhai shi fen zhi yu liang ren nei xin ge zi bu tong de da hai yi zhang re mo ji shi chan chun zi xin de lian shi er chu chu ke lian jiang ren zhu ku qi shi zhou zhao bi zi wang le dai fang shai shuang 、bai se mao zi dai hua wen de yong yi 、gong se tuo xie “yuan lai ，wo men yu da hai zhi jian mei you ju li 。”2“dang ran ，ru guo ni jian guo zhen zheng de hai ，ni jiu bian le 。”wu ye hai shui de hei ji ji mo sheng ni yi mo fan gu de pu xiang ta ye ke neng shi ta zheng xiang wo men chong lai hei chen chen de hai mian shan shuo zhao wei guang wei zhi de yan han huo zhi re ，xi mie ni lai bu ji tuo xia yi qun que qing yi fang qi le shi jie tang zai le chao xi de xiong kou qu ba ，qu gan shou na mo yi xiao ting nei xin de wei ju ru tong zha lie ru tong ke wang ni shui zi ji jiu shi mo fa tu po de bi lei bi ru ，mo fa jie shou he yi ge bu ai de ren shang chuang fan gun zhao de hai lang mian mian bu jue pu teng zhao xiang wo men ben lai xi yue yu tong ku re leng mo de chang ye jin zheng ming chun cui na tou ding de xing kong ne ，ta yin man guo duo shao hei dong tun shi yi qie wu zhi de yin guo er ni yong yuan kan bu jian ta de xuan zhuai yong yuan mo fa yu zhi mian dui mian zhe shi duo me ke pa zhi chu a ，hao bi man chang you tai duo wo men bu ceng kui jian de shi wu ta men zheng zai fu lan xiang shi qu de shi jian he shui guo de ren “er wo men ，huo zhe jin jin zhi shi yang ben ？”ci ke ni zai bu yuan chu hu xi ci ke chong sheng 3qing chen ，ni zou chu yu shi ，lian jia chao gong mai lai de xin xian shui guo fang zhi cha ji liao qi ran fa ，jian bian de jin huang huo lu se “zhi wei gai bian wei lai de xin qing 。”suo wei ming tian ，shei you neng ti ni miao shu ne ？xia ri shang bu zu yi cheng da na pa zhi wu de lu yi jie jin shen chen da hai jia su le chuan xi tai yang zheng zai nu li zhi zao yin ying gua guo fa yo bao man suo wei na fang ，zao yi lun xian yu jin dai shi ni zhan zai le hai de mian qian ni shui hai de lan se shi min gan de zheng wu ，bai se de hai lang yi zhen zhen xi lai na chong teng duo xiang yan lei ni shui hao shuang a na shi ，ni zheng cong ju da de yan shui zhong fu chu shen ti hai zi men cai zhao xi xiao de sha li ni shui qi na wei yao yuan ，cong wei mou mian de wang lian qing ren ye xiang he ta sheng xia yi dui xiao hai yi bei zi zhu zai yuan li cheng shi yu da hai de de fang duo shao ci ，yuan chu de hai wan shi fang jing tao ya pai jiang da mo bi de zi zhi li fu gai kuan kuo de yu wang ，mo wu de yu shun jian ，la chang suo you shi wu de ping heng ni chang chang yu wo yi qi bao chi chen mo shi hu hai you shei hui ti wo men biao da hai feng xiang zai jin hang yi ci ci shou shu geng tie jin lang de ben zhi ni jiang wo yin ru shen chu que ju jue wo shen chu de shuang shou “zong suan sheng guo le yu yue de she mo 。”ni shui na wan zai meng li jian dao le she chu xian zai tong nian shi lao jia de men kou 4na xie da lao shang an de hai xian “ta men hen ke lian ，ta men dou shi sheng ming 。”wo men gong tong de hai mian mei you yi tiao lu geng mo fa da kai yi shan men “cong di yi ci jian mian ，wo men bian kai shi cheng wei bi ci de hui yi le 。”wo men zhou wei quan shi you huo bao gua zhe hai “shi jie ，bing fei xiang xiang de na me gan jing 。ye bu shi mei ge ren dou neng zuo dao chun cui de zi si 。”shi fou mo shu yu qun zheng xiang wo men ben lai ju jing shi fou ru tong wo men nan yi an shui feng yong er zhi man shi gai hua de bai gu yu bei ke jing ji yu yi ci ci cuo jiao ni da sheng xiao le “zhe da hai jiu jing shi meng xiang hai shi kong ju de yuan tou ？”5xie dai de bi mi xiao shi yu wu hou de hang ban cheng wei duo nian hou mo shu bian huai yi de zhen shi wo reng hui xiang qi na pian sha tan dan qie shen hou mo shu xiao san de jiao yin wo men dou ceng zai bi ci mian qian ti mo wan fu ba gu chan zang shen hai de qing fu jian ci qing xi de que shi lao qu de bei ying zhi zhi you tian tu ran jing xing ba yi sheng jing li fu yu hai shui zhi you hai rong na ren jian de hao han tian shi yi qie wu zhuo po jie ya yi de zhang ai ba suo you de pian duan zhu yi shi fang shi de ，dui yu yan qian de shi jie wo men yi mo li suo qu geng duo 2020.5.5-7 |
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